I remember when Maddie was about 6 months old. I would feed her at around 10am, then I’d play Sesame Street for her while she sat on my lap and wondered at Elmo’s silly voice.
I remember when Whitney was small, and she and Maddie would crawl up on the couch and snuggle with me after they ate breakfast, and I’d hope and pray that Barney would be interesting to them that day so I could sleep for just 5 more minutes.
I remember hiking through our woods with Belle on my back, Maddie and Whitney looking under every leaf for a wild strawberry or blackberry to eat for desert after lunch. We had a different adventure every day.
Once the big girls were school age, me and Belle trooped all over town, running errands together, her chirping away endlessly in the backseat about whatever came to her mind. Her beautiful, joy-filled world filling up my own.
And now, for the first time in 11 years, I will be sending all 3 girls to school all day long. The house will be quiet. I’ll get re-acquainted with my thoughts. I’ll regain some sense of identity and independence. I’m looking forward to that-but I will miss them during the day. I like having them around.