I get this way sometimes. I guess you would call it melancholic, I don’t know. It happens a lot after conferences or trips to India or some other culture. I get this uncomfortableness I’m not quite sure what to do with. I sit and fiddle and fidget until the feeling goes away, but this time I want to really work through it.
I think this time it is a holy discontent. I think God wants more for me, and those around me. I feel like when I’m in the “daily grind” of the girls’ school-dance-preschool- field trip lives, I let their activities consume me. Between activities, someone has to feed them, do their laundry, make sure they are clean, and that would be me! There doesn’t seem to be much “me” time left at the end of the day.
I do read my Bible, or read through a devotional each night before bed, but I think God is calling me out to more.
What does that mean?
I have no idea.
I’m really glad the girls are done with school this week. I’m going to infringe upon their time this summer and take some “me and God” time. I really want to go deeper. I really want to know him more. I am looking for some friends to go along with me. I don’t even know what that means, or what it will look like. I’m committed. I’m hoping some others are feeling this way and want to do something about it too.